​The Divine Feminine has been a huge part of my journey, and I have been called to write a series of blog posts about my experience, as many more people are finding themselves called to this path now. If you have found this post, then this is probably for you. There are no coincidences, so please read on, and take what resonates. If some of this makes sense for you, you may like to check out my events and services, including my free monthly Crystal Wellbeing Meditation. You may also like to bookmark this page. As you read on, my best advice is to feel the energy of the words here – trying to process them logically may fry your brain! Feel them, and you will feel the truth that resonates with you and your soul’s experience.

This month's topic is worthiness. Please let me be clear before I start: This wound can affect any area of the energy system, and any area of physical life. Worthiness. It is a word we will have heard before, but have you ever stopped to really think about it means? For the purpose of this post, this is what I mean by "worthiness": A feeling of intrinsic value that comes from within. An inner state of knowing, that by simply existing, we are innately worthy. Worthy of the best. Of dreams coming true. Of manifesting whatever our hearts desire. Of respect. Of acceptance. Of LOVE.

Indeed, this wound does tend to affect the Heart Chakra. The Heart chakra is the bridge between Heaven and Earth, bringing Spirit/energy into matter/the physical reality. The bridge between self and the outer world, how we relate to it and to those around us. The bridge between self and God/the Universe/Higher Self/whatever Higher Power makes sense for you. 

The root of this wound is founded in persecution. As I have mentioned earlier in the series (go back and read the others!), The Divine Feminine has suffered persecution, for being powerful, for being misunderstood, for having GIFTS. Often, the external consequences of this kind of persecution are dealt with. These kinds of external consequences usually revolve around what happened and what other people did - understanding what happened and forgiving those doing the persecuting is part of the healing process. But only part of it. The other vital part is often never even considered, let alone healed. Let's look at what that is...

There is also what I call the "internal persecution". A kind of self-persecution. We can blame ourselves, often unconsciously, for what happened. For mistakes me made, for what we did, thought or said that was wrong. We forgive ourselves for that, which is certainly part of the healing process. But it is still only a superficial aspect to a very deep issue. Underneath all the persecution, can be found the most detrimental false belief - one that tells us that we DESERVED to be persecuted. That our very nature, as a Divine Feminine, is what brought trouble and pain and suffering upon us, and it happened because it was warranted. This false belief is so common, but so deeply ingrained and unconscious, that we can miss it, skirt around it for years, even while consciously and dutifully going about our healing work.

While processing the trauma and blaming ourselves for what happened, we are distracted from what is taking root - underneath the distraction, the belief that we deserved it to happen and the sense of innate unworthiness take hold. It becomes a systemic problem that underlies every problem we experience - quite literally a core wound. So big, we fail to notice. So insidious, we are so used to its presence, we do not even realise it is not meant to be there. We act from that energy, making decisions based on that gnawing sense of unworthiness, as though it were true. That energy of unworthiness causes us to sabotaging ourselves. Never expecting better, means we never strive for the best for ourselves. We "make do", and tell ourselves that there are others who are worse off. We settle, because in the core of our being, we believe we are unworthy of any better. Believing that if we ever did manage to experience something better, it wouldn't last, and we would only be hurt and disappointed when we lost it. Causing us to avoid it completely.

Can you relate to this inner struggle? This vicious cycle that causes you to turn on yourself? Unconsciously believing yourself to be unworthy, due to past events and trauma? Falsely believing your gifts brought about your demise, so you block yourself from using the very gifts that would heal you? Avoiding using your gifts to support you in living your best life? Essentially this causes us to become our own worst enemy, and mostly we have no idea why we do this to ourselves. The answer is in our past, in our cellular memory, and the best way I know to undo this cycle, is with intense energy healing. In fact, this is why I devised my distance healing session, Energetic Shift. It works across all directions of time, space and reality, and clears so deeply, that profound shifts in consciousness are instantly possible. If you'd like to know more, send me a message now.

Do you recognise an inner sense of unworthiness? Leave a comment below to let me know how it resonates with you.
Did this post bring up triggers or realisations for you? When we see it, that is the first step to healing it :-)

The Divine Feminine has been a huge part of my journey, and I have been called to write a series of blog posts about my experience, as many more people are finding themselves called to this path now. If you have found this post, then this is probably for you. There are no coincidences, so please read on, and take what resonates. If some of this makes sense for you, you may like to check out my events and services, including my free monthly Crystal Wellbeing Meditation. You may also like to bookmark this page. As you read on, my best advice is to feel the energy of the words here – trying to process them logically may fry your brain! Feel them, and you will feel the truth that resonates with you and your soul’s experience.

This month's blog post will cover the wounding of the Throat chakra, which is one that has particularly affected me in this lifetime. And it has been a big issue for me, but I have left it til the third instalment, not because it isn't as important. but because this is something which seems to affect both Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energy. It isn't just a Divine Feminine energy issue, but it does affect the expression of Divine Feminine energy.

The Throat chakra is connected with expression, communication, truth, and authenticity. Issues can be physical or non-physical, but most likely both, depending on how severe the wounding is. I certainly had both! Indeed, the more severe the wounding, the more likely it is that you need to use that chakra to full effect, so healing is imperative. So, let's start with the physical issues, as these are often the easiest to recognise.

Throat Chakra Issues

Physical issues with the Throat chakra can include illness and disease connected to not just the physical throat, but also to ears and nose as well, as they are all connected. This could be frequent colds, repeated throat/ear infections, needing to have tonsils or adenoids removed, losing your voice frequently, having a stiff neck, or even jaw or spinal issues... and all of this can appear to happen without any real reason. It could also include having a stammer or being mute, or even hearing problems. You may be born with such issues, as almost always these issues stem from past life issues. How many of these have been recurring or constant issues for you? I had almost all of these, which I have successfully healed or at least been able to manage them, with energy healing and nutrition.

Now for the not-so-physical symptoms of Throat chakra wounding, and all relate to different aspects of expression. Expression can be verbal, but it can also affect life choices, and being unable to be authentic in the way we live our lives. We may misinterpret other people's words and intentions, or we may feel misunderstood by others. We may struggle to find the right words, especially when under pressure or feeling emotional. We may feel ignored, unheard, or overlooked, and have difficulty in setting boundaries with others. It can also manifest as being a people-pleaser or a yes-person, being unable to say NO, even when what is asked of us is detrimental to our own well-being. These issues can present with extremes too - for example we may feel like we are never heard, and so we may be too loud, or speak too much, but during the times when it matters, we may struggle to speak up for ourselves, like during a confrontation. Are any of these ringing any bells for you? Again, many of these applied to me, and I still have to be conscious of these tendencies now, so as not to fall into the traps, but it is possible to overcome them.

Other Issues That Can Arise

From the work that I have done on myself, and on others, I have noticed that these issues are all amplified when it comes to significant relationships - so we may be fine to express ourselves with friends or in work, but when it comes to family or a partner, the issues may feel more severe. It is normal to find this to be the case when we are already in the process of healing Throat chakra issues. So, if you feel like you have made some progress, only to find that the issue rears its head again, it is not the problem returning, just that there is another layer of healing needed. It really is like an onion. Notice and feel proud of the healing you have already done, and just keep going :-)

Throat chakra wounding can also create unhealthy relationship patterns, especially when combined with the chakra wounding covered in the first two blog posts in the series - intuition (Third Eye) and emotions (Sacral). Blocks and wounds in these three area create one big systemic block, which can lead to abusive relationship cycles, where control is an issue. Either by feeling controlled or manipulated by others, or needing to control or manipulate circumstances to feel safe or to avoid feeling fearful. When we are unable to express (Throat) our emotions (Sacral), and we can not access or trust our intuition (Third Eye), then we are susceptible to becoming trapped in abusive situations. Working on our own self-healing allows us to trust ourselves, listen to our feelings, and say exactly what we need. This is particularly true when it comes to boundaries, and stating the kind of behaviour we expect, or will not accept. Healing Throat chakra wounds can have far-reaching effects, which will help us to get more joy out of life and our relationships.

And lastly, for me, the most important one: Throat chakra wounds block us from expressing our Divinity, and everything connected to that. This includes our ability to manifest, to share our intuitive insights, and our ability to carry out our Life Mission and Soul Purpose. We came here to do all of these things, that is our natural state, and when we are unable to do these things, and be this way, it can lead to a sort of spiritual depression. Very often, the most spiritually gifted souls have Throat chakra wounds that they must work through, before being able to go about their spiritual work. Early in my spiritual journey, I received the following words from a gifted medium - he told me "People need to hear what you have to say". I had never believed that could be the case before that moment, having felt silenced all my life. But I could feel the energy of his words, and knew it then to be true. If you have a significant Throat chakra wound, this is no doubt also true for you. Whether you suppressed your own Throat chakra, or someone else did it for you, now is the time to heal it, because the world needs what you have to offer, right now.

Join me on December 11th, when I am hosting an in-person Divine Feminine Healing workshop, which will have a profound impact on your healing journey, offering transformational results. Read about it and book here

This was a particularly emotional post for me to write, and it may bring up stuff for you. ​Before you go, let me know in the comments if this resonates for you.

The Divine Feminine has been a huge part of my journey, and I have been called to write a series of blog posts about my experience, as many more people are finding themselves called to this path now. If you have found this post, then this is probably for you. There are no coincidences, so please read on, and take what resonates. If some of this makes sense for you, you may like to check out my events and services, including my free monthly Crystal Wellbeing Meditation. You may also like to bookmark this page. As you read on, my best advice is to feel the energy of the words here – trying to process them logically may fry your brain! Feel them, and you will feel the truth that resonates with you and your soul’s experience.

For the last 14 years I have been healing my own inner Divine Feminine energy. It started with counselling and more “normal” ways of healing, before becoming a full-on spiritual experience. This healing journey is not for the faint of heart, but it is highly rewarding. For those on this path, please know, you are a Spiritual Warrior! Divine Feminine energy, for me, is not about flowing skirts and being all “love and light”. It can be, sometimes, but more often, it is about hard work, determination, truth, integrity and finding an inner power and strength you had no idea you had. THAT is what we came here for. Everything I share is my own experience, and I use that experience to support others on their journeys.

Over the years, I have seen “patterns” in wounding – Divine Feminine energy people (not always female) tend to carry similar wounding, which manifest in their current lifetime. These issues often stem from past lifetime issues and inner child trauma. These wounds play out, over and over, until we stop them. This blog post will focus on one of those wounds.

One common and fundamental wound is related to our intuition. Intuition is a Divine Feminine gift. Developing this gift is our path to wholeness. However, when we have wounding around our intuition, we block it – perhaps even unconsciously – and we mistrust it. In order to feel content in our lives, we need to be whole, which means the healing of such wounds is vital for our happiness and well-being.

Intuition is connected to our Third Eye, and both allow us to access our Divine Feminine wisdom. At some point, most Divine Feminine energy souls either block their own Third Eye, or someone else does it for them. Let’s look at why that happens – because understanding that alone, can start to unblock things.

Why Divine Feminine energy has been suppressed
Most often Divine Feminine energy has been suppressed or blocked through misunderstanding. Where there is misunderstanding, fear usually follows.

Some people did not understand how Divine Feminines could “just know” things. They feared the wisdom that seemed to be accessed from nowhere. They did not understand us, it did not make “logical” sense, and so they shunned, punished, ostracised, you name it. As a result, Divine Feminines suffered rejection and abandonment for simply being ourselves.

Some Divine Feminines decided it was safer to shut down our energy, to ensure that we were accepted by society. We hid our true nature, to have the security of the clan – people often needed their tribe or community as a matter of life or death. Even though our wisdom would have been beneficial for everyone, we mistakenly believed that it was better to suppress it for our protection.
This kind of mistaken thinking compounded over time, passed down through generations, suppressing and blocking other Divine Feminine traits as well. That will be the topic for future blog posts.

Being “Socially Acceptable”
There has been a lot of shame around Divine Feminine energy. We were made to feel “bad”, “evil”, “ill”, “wrong” – I am sure you have heard of witch trials, people being put into psychiatric care for being “crazy”, or simply being criticised for being “too sensitive”. We have absorbed those false beliefs about ourselves, so that they have become unconscious – we may not remember, but it is still there in our energy, dominating our behaviour and the reality we live in. These kinds of false beliefs are the very reason we can struggle to accept, embrace and trust our Divine Feminine gifts. We have been conditioned to avoid using our gift, so that we can be a “good” person. This kind of pretence takes a lot of energy to maintain. It is exhausting to be so inauthentic!

Where it was not possible to hide our Divine Feminine energy, we were forced to use it in unhealthy and unhelpful ways. We may have used our gift for “dark” purposes – as a way of fitting in, to keep ourselves safe and to be accepted. Those who were power hungry wanted to manipulate Divine Feminine energy to further their own cause – they distorted it, abused it, controlled it, to suit their agenda. Many were jealous of those with Divine Feminine energy. We may have had to be subservient to these people, in order to stay out of “trouble”. It literally was fight for survival.

The Consequences
All of this has taught us to unconsciously associate our innate gift, our natural way of being, and our Divine birth right, with things like:

• Punishment
• Danger
• Abuse
• Unworthiness
• Rejection
• Evil
• Death

It is no surprise that we may fear our gift and our true selves, suppress it, block it, reject it. We reject ourselves, when we reject our own Divine Feminine energy. And should we attempt to accept and embrace our Divine Feminine energy, this can bring up INTENSE, visceral, irrational fear.

It is ridiculously common to begin your spiritual journey, to start to work with your gifts, only to be confronted with rising fear. This is actually our sign to show we are in fact on the RIGHT path. It is our responsibility to heal ourselves of each “layer” of fear as it comes up. And to continue on our Divine path. Indeed, this is what we came here to do. Our Divine Feminine energy is needed right now, this will heal the planet.

Things are different now. The old fear and power structures that once dominated this planet have been crumbling for a long time, and will indeed come crashing down. As we each do our own healing work, we heal on behalf of Mother Earth and all her inhabitants. We are fully supported in our healing work, and while it may feel scary, there really is nothing to fear now.
 
It absolutely is 100% possible to heal and clear those blocks, and for you to free yourself from misunderstandings of the past. Your efforts are needed and appreciated. Thank you for being here.

Does this resonate with you? Do you need support in unlocking your gifts and healing fear/blocks? Discover more about my Divine Feminine Healing workshop, which takes place in December. Or send me a message now, for free resources and advice.

Emotions. It’s great when we experience positive ones, isn’t it? But not so great when we’re suffering with negative emotions. It’s all part of the human experience though. Our souls came down here to experience the FULL range on offer, even the tough and grimy ones (yeah, thanks for that, Soul. Hee hee). As we approach the New Moon in Scorpio (Saturday Nov 18th at 11:42am here in the UK), and thanks to several other planets in the same sign, we are in EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD right now. Emotions are coming up now to be dealt with. Read on to find out why it is so important to deal with our emotions…
 
As humans, we can often want to resist negative emotions, in favour of trying to hold on to the positive ones. It just feels nicer, doesn’t it? But emotions are what I like to call energy in motion. “Energy in MOTION”. They are designed to move about. They are designed to get US moving, to make us take action! They are signs from our soul, our intuition, our inner knowing. Suppress them, hold them down, ignore them, and we are basically ignoring our inner sat nav, ignoring OURSELVES.
 
Our emotions are like water, they’re meant to flow. We humans find the negative ones tough to deal with, so we try to avoid those. We put a dam up, to keep the negative ones away. The dam is usually started in childhood, when we are less equipped to deal with our emotions. So we put a layer of bricks to keep out the bad feelings, keep them trapped so we don’t feel them. Over the years, we can continue to add a layer of bricks. Slowly but surely building that dam, taller and taller, it keeps us safe from the negative emotions.
 
Sounds pretty helpful, this dam, doesn’t it? But what we didn’t realise when we started building it, this dam also keeps out the positive emotions. All the positive ones and the negative ones blend together, just like water does. They can’t be separated, so the emotions we want to feel are kept away from us too. At first, we are still able to feel joy, love, happiness… but over time, the higher the dam gets, the less we are able to feel them. They slip away from us without us noticing, until one day we can’t feel a thing.
 
Being emotionally numb may not sound so bad. If the negative emotions are really quite scary, you may be happy to forego the positive emotions if it means avoiding the negative. But emotions are persistent. They may be hidden, but those emotions are still there, festering, accumulating, bubbling away behind the dam. Until one day, the dam just can’t hold them back any longer. Perhaps the dam collapses under sheer weight of the emotions being stored. Or perhaps one traumatic event creates a tidal wave, and the dam comes crashing down. All those suppressed feelings flood over you, drowning you. Emotional Overload. Often, it is only when things reach crisis point, that we take notice and deal with our emotions. When faced with such an emergency, we have no control over when we start. It is there, in our faces, we have to stop and deal with it, no matter what else is going on around us.
 
The good news is, we can start dealing with our emotions here and now. Bit by bit. In our own time, at our own pace. We don’t need to wait ‘til the dam gives way. This is what this New Moon is all about. Dealing with those emotions. So what do you do? Acknowledge them. That is the first step. Once you have seen these emotions, admitted they are there, a lot of the “sting” has already gone, because emotions look much scarier when they are hidden away. A fear of the unknown can make things seem worse than they really are. Once you know, that fear goes away. Fearing and suppressing emotions takes up a lot of energy. Acknowledging and freeing emotions will make you feel lighter and give you back some vitality.
 
Sometimes, all we need to really do is acknowledge our emotions, and the problem seems to evaporate. And sometimes, we may need to take some action. “How do I know what to do?” you may ask me… Well, this is the beauty of our emotions. As I said earlier, they are our inner sat nav, messages from our intuition and our Soul. Our Soul always knows what to do. Logically, it may make no sense. What you “know” in your Soul you need to do, may bring up some fears in itself. But if we trust our Soul, and ultimately ourselves, we can never go wrong.
 
I’m going to guess that, given the fact you are reading this now, you are an Old Soul – sensitive and gifted. Gifted Souls tend to have a tough time growing up, experience some really harsh situations, and all the emotions that go with that. Difficult families, traumatic events, illness, you know the kind of thing. You have experienced it for a reason. You came here to learn the harshness of human life...and also how to recover from it. Then, you share what you learned with others. You came here to help. To shine your beautiful Light.
 
We can only shine our Light when we have removed the darkness that covers it. We need to allow our emotions to move. Deal with them. Stop fearing them. We need to allow them to guide us, share their messages with us, heal us. We are never given more than we can handle. Our logical brains may disagree, but our Souls know what they are doing. This Scorpio New Moon is your chance to start looking at your emotions, and start listening more closely to your Soul. Clear that which covers your light, and shine bright.
 
I hope this message brings you some comfort and inspiration. Please share it, if you found it useful – you never know who else may need some encouragement. You may also like to look at my crystal healing treatment list, which gives you an idea of the ways that crystals can help you on your journey. Please note though, that all of my crystal healing treatments are fully personalised, so that you receive exactly what you need, for your best and highest good.
 
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Oh yes, I am very excited by this - I have coveted a Biomat for yeeeears.

There is a lot of science and research behind the Biomat, and this info comes in a big pack when you purchase one. I have booklets here that you are welcome to look at, and there are links that explain in more detail than I give here. But in this post I will just tell you what I love about the Biomat. Then, if you want to know more, you can go away and do some research yourself. But I'm telling you, the Biomat is amazing!

At first glance, the Biomat is a heat mat. Lie on it, and it is warm and soothing - great for stiff joints, muscle aches, that kind of thing. But there is much more to the Biomat that just heat...

If you hadn't guessed already, like most things I love, Biomats contain CRYSTALS. Amethyst crystals, because Amethyst was found to be the best conductor of the Far Infrared rays. That's right, not only do you get the crystal healing power of Amethyst, you get the benefit of Far Infrared rays too. These rays mimic those of the sun. They heat muscles on the surface of the body, but also penetrate deep within the body, heating tissues, boosting circulation and metabolism. And, yes, that does mean possible weight loss!

My particular Biomat contains Black Tourmaline as well - so this gives a beautiful grounding energy. Those of you who know me well, know I am also very passionate about grounding! In basic scientific terms, grounding is getting rid of positive ions from the body, and gaining negative ions. There are great health benefits to be had from grounding (negative ions), including better immune system function, improved sleep,  reduced effects of stress, and much more... Take a look at the links at the end of this post.

So, crystals, Far Infrared rays, and negative (grounding) ions... I have mentioned some lovely advantages of these things briefly already. However, these advantages have knock-on benefits for our health. I love lists, so I compiled one to show you some of the ways the Biomat can improve our health:

• aids healing and repair of body tissue
• eases pain and tension in muscles and joints
• helps pain, eg. arthritic pain, period pain
• reduces inflammation
• alleviates stress, anxiety and depression
• aids restful sleep
• improves skin tone
• increases blood flow to muscles
• reduces blood pressure
• activates essential enzymes
• improves cell metabolism
• helps eliminate toxins
• increases immune system function
• aids weight loss
• lowers side-effects of diabetes
• improves overall well-being

There is even a protocol for preventing/treating certain types of cancers with the Biomat. I have posted a link below about this. 

Aside from these benefits, it is a wonderfully relaxing experience. I use the Biomat during crystal healing sessions for my clients. And of course, I regularly use it myself too - it really helps my dodgy back :-)

Why not try it for yourself? Book in for a crystal healing treatment with me, to experience it firsthand. 

Grounding links:
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2014/03/01/body-electricity-grounding.aspx 

https://www.ionic-balance.com/technology/what-are-negative-ions

Far Infrared link:
http://www.well-beingsecrets.com/health-benefits-of-far-infrared-rays/

Cancer Protocol link:
https://www.cancertutor.com/biomat/

When I tell someone I'm a crystal therapist, 9 times out of 10 the next question is "what's that?" So, I thought I'd put it in writing :-)

Most people have heard of Acupuncture, the Eastern method of healing "chi", life force or energy in our bodies. The idea is that our bodies should be full of flowing, vibrant energy, and problems can occur if this energy becomes stagnant, blocked, slow or even moves too fast. These energetic imbalances can cause physical, mental or emotional issues if left untreated.

As a crystal healer, I assess your energy levels, and balance them out as required, using crystals. Each type of crystal vibrates at a different frequency, and I choose the ones that will best harmonise your own energy. Take a look at the links below, to learn more about how the vibration of Quartz crystals is used in watches.

​In my experience, many physical problems start out as mental worries or emotional issues, which are left to fester over time. We generally don't know what to do to resolve them, so we can feel stuck. Where scientific medicine tries to treat the physical symptoms, crystals get to the root cause. Where counselling can mean you have to look at painful memories, crystals do the hard work, while you relax in the comfort of a beautiful treatment.

The real beauty of crystal healing is that it is natural - unlike medication, there are no chemicals going inside your body, and there are no nasty side effects. 

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